Two years have rolled by dude ... since you left us.
Still there is barely a single day which passes without me thinking of you atleast once
You have been associated with me all my school life - PSBB/Alpha , a lot of my college life and my stint in Wipro CDC.
My memories are just incomplete without you.
I still havent met your parents. I dont know when I would.
I dont know how to face them da.
We all have our cocoons - cocoons of comfort. We dont want to leave them .
We are made to believe Life is so rosy and we live most of our lives under this same made-to-believe impression ... I dont want to shake it. I dont want to face the truth.
and i have the liberty to stay in my cocoon of comfort. Friends have that liberty ...
its only parents who dont.
Amen.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Life's turning 360 degrees
My last 5 years have taught me all kinds of lessons . I am coming out of it
quite experienced (and literally white-haired .. first few strands popping up)
I have been subjected to almost all sorts of emotions one could keep his hand on..........
I sometimes feel like a recipe being cooked in God's kitchen . Its like put some spice , boil for 2 mins , now cool it then add sugar ......
Oh yeah just that spices are my emotions. My Luck , God wants to experiment on his new dish with me :)
One major lesson which finally seems to make sense to me is that Plans dont work .... never do. Keep plans , keep backup plans , do contigency planning and still I bet it you have a task at hand .... you got to do something real time to get things working
(i remember that famous quote which goes something like: "God must be laughing when he listens to your future plans" ... when you dont know whats gonna happen next minute , we plan for our lifetime!!!)
Whose idea was it by the way to have short term / long term goals ?
Goals for what ? To kind of plan things in advance ...prepare milestones , goals , objectives?
And then fail to achieve them ......
Or succeed but actually not be happy ? And say This is not what I wanted or This is just not enough.
Are we more obsessed in the ritual to get "there" , the process ? Are we losing the real thing ?
Should we be disappointed that we lost out on our on some short term goal / some step to get there ?
Or realize that this is not the only way to get "there" ? Or getting to this intermediate step was never necessary ?
Now what does "getting there" mean ? Well it depends on people ? I dont think so.
"Getting there" here means money ? Is money the goal of your life ? NO , never you are referring to the happiness which money can possibly get you. Money is not the goal , its an intermediate step which you believe will lead you to the final goal - happiness.e
"Getting there" means fame ? So you want to be famous ? Why ? Because it makes you feel good . It makes you feel happy dude. Hey so again fame is not the goal -> happiness is the goal. And all the while you thought being famous is your goal. Naah.
My point is simple. "Getting there" holds the same meaning for everyone. Happiness and peace. And thats what I got to aim for ? Why should I aim for any intermediate thing ? Why higher studies ? Why a job with a better pay packet ? Why anything ? Why not straight happiness .... we think happiness has pre requisites -money , fame . No Sir , it doesnt have . It lives in the simplest of things , simplest of places - We dont see it because we are never actually looking for it.
To cut it short: I am gonna have only one goal - short term/long term whatever be it. You got it. "Happiness"
Note1: Well there are thousands of people who vouch their success is due to their meticulous planning. Must be true ... just that we mortals are not capable of it :). But then its also about do I really want to do that ? The greatest and the most interesting part about life is its surprise element , its uncertainity ? Then why we are we hell bent to spoil the fun with all planning ? Why try to solve it like a puzzle at all - it was never meant to be solved ? Just plain lie back and watch it unfold , unravel ... the vortex of Maya.
Note2: Admitted ,this post is Greek and latin at times ? Its more of a "self-rhetoric" types , so I wont be surpised if you dont understand parts of it.
quite experienced (and literally white-haired .. first few strands popping up)
I have been subjected to almost all sorts of emotions one could keep his hand on..........
I sometimes feel like a recipe being cooked in God's kitchen . Its like put some spice , boil for 2 mins , now cool it then add sugar ......
Oh yeah just that spices are my emotions. My Luck , God wants to experiment on his new dish with me :)
One major lesson which finally seems to make sense to me is that Plans dont work .... never do. Keep plans , keep backup plans , do contigency planning and still I bet it you have a task at hand .... you got to do something real time to get things working
(i remember that famous quote which goes something like: "God must be laughing when he listens to your future plans" ... when you dont know whats gonna happen next minute , we plan for our lifetime!!!)
Whose idea was it by the way to have short term / long term goals ?
Goals for what ? To kind of plan things in advance ...prepare milestones , goals , objectives?
And then fail to achieve them ......
Or succeed but actually not be happy ? And say This is not what I wanted or This is just not enough.
Are we more obsessed in the ritual to get "there" , the process ? Are we losing the real thing ?
Should we be disappointed that we lost out on our on some short term goal / some step to get there ?
Or realize that this is not the only way to get "there" ? Or getting to this intermediate step was never necessary ?
Now what does "getting there" mean ? Well it depends on people ? I dont think so.
"Getting there" here means money ? Is money the goal of your life ? NO , never you are referring to the happiness which money can possibly get you. Money is not the goal , its an intermediate step which you believe will lead you to the final goal - happiness.e
"Getting there" means fame ? So you want to be famous ? Why ? Because it makes you feel good . It makes you feel happy dude. Hey so again fame is not the goal -> happiness is the goal. And all the while you thought being famous is your goal. Naah.
My point is simple. "Getting there" holds the same meaning for everyone. Happiness and peace. And thats what I got to aim for ? Why should I aim for any intermediate thing ? Why higher studies ? Why a job with a better pay packet ? Why anything ? Why not straight happiness .... we think happiness has pre requisites -money , fame . No Sir , it doesnt have . It lives in the simplest of things , simplest of places - We dont see it because we are never actually looking for it.
To cut it short: I am gonna have only one goal - short term/long term whatever be it. You got it. "Happiness"
Note1: Well there are thousands of people who vouch their success is due to their meticulous planning. Must be true ... just that we mortals are not capable of it :). But then its also about do I really want to do that ? The greatest and the most interesting part about life is its surprise element , its uncertainity ? Then why we are we hell bent to spoil the fun with all planning ? Why try to solve it like a puzzle at all - it was never meant to be solved ? Just plain lie back and watch it unfold , unravel ... the vortex of Maya.
Note2: Admitted ,this post is Greek and latin at times ? Its more of a "self-rhetoric" types , so I wont be surpised if you dont understand parts of it.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
1 month hiatus !!!
I am back after my short hiatus...
Its been quite an eventful period .
First my 1 week shutdown @ office which left us with no option but to take 5 days off during the last week of June.
I make it sound pretty "forced" and unfortunate. Well no , most of us loved it . Not too often , are we are encouraged to
take 5 days off , leave alone allowed. Taking 5 days off twice a year is in more ways a perk.
I did spend most of it in Chennnai. Doing nothing much except sleeping and eating ...
Only to come back to face a lot of pending work @ office !!!
Well Life !!!
Its been quite an eventful period .
First my 1 week shutdown @ office which left us with no option but to take 5 days off during the last week of June.
I make it sound pretty "forced" and unfortunate. Well no , most of us loved it . Not too often , are we are encouraged to
take 5 days off , leave alone allowed. Taking 5 days off twice a year is in more ways a perk.
I did spend most of it in Chennnai. Doing nothing much except sleeping and eating ...
Only to come back to face a lot of pending work @ office !!!
Well Life !!!
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